"It's just....."
"Life is simple, it's just not easy." Dr. Steve Maraboli
It's just ......
a Wednesday, but it's not. It's cinnamon roll Wednesday, it's extra hug day Wednesday. It's stand in your driveway and wave to your two boys for the last time on SRR until Monday, swallowing the anxiety, while frantically holding back your tears until they wave on their ride by you for the second time on their way to school. It's telling your Riley to have a great time on his first overnight field trip knowing you won't be able to talk to him in person until days after he returns or wish him well the day he leaves.
It's "front loading" everything you normally do as a parent on a daily basis to include what you would do even though they are not under your roof. It's getting up at 4 am to finish the barn so that you can spend every waking moment with them.
It's just ......
picture day, but it's not. Last week was the first time I have had Riley and Logan for pictures in three years. It's minor, I do know this, but I was able to dress my boys up for school pictures. Don't ever take for granted the little things like having the opportunity to say good morning to your children in person each day or pick out their clothes for picture day.
It's just ......
a barn, but it's not, it's what allows our family continue to live on SRR. It's a place that has provided so much more than financial support.
Scrappin' on the Ranch has afforded us the opportunity to live on 40 acres of beauty on Stone Roller Road as a family. The reality is this is not our extra fun money or retirement fund, but it is a family business we appreciate and take such pride in because it is so important to us as a family to continue to call Stone Roller Road home. Our barn is a part of our home/family.
It's just ......
a scale, but truly, it's not. For anyone who has struggled or currently struggles with body image distortion a scale itself can set them off. The anxiety I felt on Monday on my way to the clinic had nothing to do with the tests they were doing and the day of appointments and all to do with the scale. I have not looked at a scale in five years, I have only stepped on a scale backwards at any appointment I've been at and the number is never seen by me. The reality is, I never plan to know what the scale reads, what's important is how I feel physically and emotionally.
It's just ......
bedtime, but it's not. It's the final night you will put them to sleep in a few nights, read to them, watch them snuggle in, listen to their giggles - savor it, enjoy it, and take it all in.
It's just ......
CoZumel, but it's not. Each year I treat myself to a week enjoying my "island home" It's not about the luxury of going on vacation it's about getting out of a cab in 143 days and breathing in the island air, smelling Suavitel while hugging Jamie, Wilder, who am I kidding, every resort worker who walks my way.
It's about breakfast chimis,beverages and shrimp nachos at Ernestos. It's about "not caring" but more than that it's about sharing a week with my friends who come with from home and my friends on the island. It's the ocean, the ocean is my safe place, a place to not think, not worry, not care, and to just simply breathe.
Appreciate every moment, because whether you are in a split family like I am, are living away from your children, have lost your children, have no children....ANY scenario you find yourself in, it's not "just a....." it's your life and it is truly is a gift and everyone's "just a's....." are important to them.
"Life is simple, it's just not easy." Dr. Steve Maraboli
